Hi Everyone, sorry it has been so long since I've updated my blog or released a book. It seems as if over the past two weeks, everything just fell apart.
A couple weeks ago my husband was diagnosed with colon cancer and, if any of you have ever had a sick family member, you'll know how impossible it is to work when you get news like that!
Then, last week, amid colonoscopy and ct scan for my husband, I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and have to take hormone pills.
Now while those two things seem bad enough, I've felt as if there has been some weird curse on me or something because I mean EVERYTHING keeps going wrong! Tell me if this all seems unusually, weirdly, bad luckish:
My husband and I were in a minor car accident about six or eight weeks ago,
we didn't think we got hurt at the time,although we were a little shaken up (we thought).
A couple weeks after that, my husband began having excruciating pain in his neck (apparently from the undetected injury two weeks before), the neck caused excruciating pain in his head and he couldn't even lie his head on a pillow (which meant he started sleeping in his recliner in the livingroom (for almost a month).
During a checkup for a prescription for more pain meds for his neck, he discussed another problem with the doctor who then detected that he had a tumor in his colon that was large and fast growing!
Also, because my husband is American (and I am Canadian) and he's immigrating to Canada, until the immigration is final, we still have to pay for all his medical bills (whereas mine are free because in Canada we have free healthcare).
His US car insurance ran out and he'd been told that because he hasn't been (and isn't going to be) in the US for at least six months out of a year, his US car insurance company would no longer cover him when it ran out on Nov 23, and he had to get Canadian coverage, BUT, because we'd been too busy dealing with his neck issue and adjusting to the fact he had a colon tumor, we waited until the DAY it ran out to call for Canadian car insurance, only to find out that Canadian car insurance companies will not cover us until we import the car, we cannot import and register the car in Canada until he's a Canadian resident (which could take another year), so, after two days on the phone with a hundred insurance companies, immigration officials, DMV, and his old insurance company, we are carless. Well, we HAVE a car, but we just cannot drive it until he gets his residency and we import it. We even considered putting the car in my name, but we cannot do that until we import it. Ugh!
Because we had no car last week, we had to take cabs to all of our doctor appointments at the hospital. I'd been feeling increasingly ill with, what we thought, was adrenal fatigue but last week I'd gotten a lump in my throat and it was so bad I could barely breathe or swallow, so on Wed, after the morning and afternoon at the hospital with my husband for his colonoscopy, I had to take a cab back in the afternoon to see a doctor about the lump in my throat, which turned out to be an enlarged thyroid (which caused all the symptoms of adrenal fatigue).
While seeing the doctor at the hospital, we discovered that my health card had expired because when we moved a couple years ago, I forgot to notify them of my new address and didn't get the renewal notice for my health card and it expired last April. UGH! So, they almost charged me at the hospital but they decided to wait and process the paperwork so that my card has time to be renewed (we have the BEST doctors!) ... So, i have blood tests to get but I have to wait until my new health card arrives so I don't have to go through a hassle at the blood lab, but in the meantime, the doctor gave me a prescription for the thyroid hormone and said I could start taking them and that has helped me a lot already!!!
I still have to get an ultrasound on my thyroid because the doctor wants to check for a tumor on the back of it (on the parathyroid glands) ...
On Friday my husband had his CT scan to see if his cancer has spread to other parts, or if the colon cancer is a result of it spreading from somewhere else. We'll see his doctor next Friday to get the results of that scan.
We have to pay for all his treatments and he'll have to have several radiation treatments and a surgery and the doctor says this will be about $100,000 !!!
They removed one small tumor during the colonoscopy but the large one is inoperable until they shrink it.
It seems we've just had a string of bad luck. Don't be surprised if this all ends up woven in the pages of Book 7!
So, this is the reason that book 7 has been so delayed. However, my thyroid medication seems to be helping significantly and I should be able to work on my book this coming week. I will definitely have to isolate myself from the world to work on it.
For those of you that believe in God, please pray for my husband and me.
All I can say is that usually after a heavy string of bad luck, there's an awesome string of terrific luck! I do believe everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I struggle to see the reasons, then I realize, I don't have to know the reasons right now -- usually everything results in us being in a better place and circumstances down the road. Usually when things seem like they're falling apart, they're really falling into place.
Maybe all this is happening to give me/us a greater sense of Carpe Diem -- Seize the Day! (Fortunately, since I've gotten pills for my thyroid, I'm actually able to get up in the morning and there's a heck of a lot more day to seize! )
I do trust that no matter what, the universe is unfolding perfectly and we just have to relax and let it be.
I am a Canadian novelist whose life is much more exciting inside my head.