What I mean is, although writing itself is my passion, sometimes it is too fun! Sometimes I actually feel like this is preposterous to make a career of -- I feel as though I'm playing all day! Writing is fun. Writing all day, immersing myself in a fictional world that I create and control, is (to me) the equivalent of being told it's okay to sit in front of the TV all day and watch my favorite shows, or it's okay to play Sims all day (yes, I love Sims! Can't wait for Sims 4!) So, I guess, I end up feeling a little guilty inside that I'm not doing 'real work' and that is what makes me feel unproductive at the end of the day. My mind does the calculations and the budget and then realizes that I shouldn't be wasting my time writing books -- I need to get out there and earn a living!!
So, this is a whole other brand of writer's block. I don't even know what to call it. But I have found a cure for it (I think). On a day that I wake up like that, I allow myself to indulge in the notion that writing isn't a 'real' career and do a little freelance work. On any given day, my chosen 'real job' for the day could be anything from filming stock footage to making a book trailer for someone else, to making a commercial for web or TV on spec. Today I chose the commercial.
I know that at the end of the day I'll have a commercial produced (hopefully at the end of today, if not, at least by tomorrow), and hopefully ...hopefully!!... it will sell. Regardless, I've managed to convince my brain that I've done something worthwhile today and tomorrow I should be able to write with ease and hopefully finish my novel. It is taking me forever to finish it!
I always have to play mind games with myself. But I'm on a deadline to generate an income or I'll have to really go out and find a 'real job'. Ugh! Happy writing, all!