Perhaps I’m self-sabotaging. So, I’ve solved my problem. I’ve given up freelance work. (I know, I know, in the last post I said that I was going to start ghostwriting books for people, but I’ve decided against that now.) I really just want to write my own books and I cannot write other people’s books for them. If a person is not willing to take the time to read books and learn what they need to learn to create a coherent and cohesive work, then maybe it is best if they do not write a book.
Becoming a good writer—few are actually great, I think—requires practice time. This is where you will write and suck, but you will keep writing just because you love it. This time in the trenches is what will teach you how to write. This is what will improve your skill.
But in the beginning, you have to at least have a knack for storytelling of some sort. If you were the kid that told fantastic fabrications for the enjoyment of your friends, then you are a born writer. If you haven’t the slightest desire to tell a story, then coming up with an idea and wanting someone else to tell the story, is not being a writer.
So, I’ve decided quite firmly that I will not be a ghostwriter. And, despite my previous paragraphs, it isn’t really a question of my opinion of whether a non-writer should have a book out. I really couldn’t care less what others wish to do. My reason is that I just don’t have the time or desire to be taken away from my own writing projects.
I’ve had many jobs in my life. I spent 13 years monitoring news stations for a media company. It reached a point that all I wanted to was write my books and quit my job. So, I did.
Six months later, I started working for a publishing company and worked for them for five years. That was hectic. I worked more than 60 hours a week and directly under the CEO so I was always answering emails, even in the middle of the night because I felt like I had to. My boss never said I had to, but that’s the way I am. When I’m working on something, I work nonstop. I’m a workaholic. I like being like that. Fully immersed in my experience. That’s why I must love whatever job I’m doing.
After five years of working for that publishing company at that hectic pace, I just wanted to write my books, so I left my job to focus on my own writing again.
After a few months, I got writer’s block and decided to start freelancing. The money was terrific, and I was my own boss, in charge of my time and having the money flowing in like that was amazing.
Because it was so great to be so in charge of my income, I kept going and focused on making money. It was great! Until I realized that I’d gone two years without writing a book!!!
So, I stopped freelancing and focused on writing. But then I got sidetracked doing background acting on the TV show Haven. I only did three episodes, and then hurt my back and ended up with nerve damage in my leg that still bothers me to this day (3years later).
I went back to freelancing, doing various things and not knowing really what I wanted to do. Or at least thinking that I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I wrote a few books in those three years, but nothing compared to my previous production.
Now, after being obligated to other people’s projects, I have a plan! I am now trying the 12-week-year plan. Last week was week 1. My main goal in week 1 was to clean off my plate. To tie up loose ends and finish up all projects that I was working on for other people. And I did!
This week is a brand-new week (week 2) in my plan. My goal this week is working on my book! I’m going to focus on that! From now on I’m focusing on my own books and my own writing and my own passion. Life is too short to tell someone else’s stories instead of your own.